The same old constant internal thought

Photo by Thorn Yang

I haven't written anything for a while. Well, minus what I write for my social media posts, emails, text messages, and all of that. What I meant was, I haven't written anything substantial in a while. Something that has some kind of meaningful substance that I could be proud about, whether that may be a story, a blog post, or hell even a random journal entry that I would seriously consider making public one day. Instead, all I have are half-formed thoughts that disappear just as soon as I get home. Plus it does not help that I get nervous and a bit anxious every time I write a blog post. I know there are people out there who know me personally, and I am afraid of disappointing them and not showing them my best self. It also does not help that I am in a point of my life where I have to be careful about what I post online because that does affect my future career choices.

However, I have to remember to stay true to myself and remember that I originally wrote this blog for me. It started off as a place for me to explore my creative side and share my thoughts without fear of being judged. And I need to stick to that even though it's been eight years or else I would lose my sanity. However, I also have to remember that I also wrote it for those who were willing to listen and support me along the way. And that if it were not for you all, I probably would have stopped a while ago. So thank you, thank you, thank you.

And now the weather:
Old Friends by Ben Rector

"Can you take me back when we were just kids / Who weren't scared of getting older? (yeah, yeah) / 'Cause no one knows you like they know you / And no one probably ever will / You can grow up, make new ones / But truth is there's nothing like old friends / 'Cause you can't make old friends"

~ Stacy N.