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7/28/23

I still don't feel like an adult adult

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What I didn't realize about adulthood: 
  • Always asking for a more adult adult. (Help, I still feel like a kid.)
  • How many bags you end up accumulating in your lifetime. (I have so many plastic, paper, tote bags, and other kinds of bags.)
  • Not wanting kids is a completely normal feeling. (Also seems to be common amongst the people I'm around.)
  • Endless cycles of keeping the kitchen clean mainly. (So many crumbs.)
  • How many phone calls you end up making to get things done. (Doctor one, specialist two, politician three.)
  • A lot of password sharing that is done with your partner/family/friends. (Jokingly, does anyone have peacock?)
  • Forever figuring out what to eat. (Am I really in a cereal mood or do I just want it because it's right there?)
  • Endlessly being disappointed in politics and the state of the world. (Oh the Supreme Court, you're totally apolitical.)
  • Community is everywhere, you just have to be willing to go out there and find it. (It's still pretty scary and kind of tiring putting myself out there.)
  • How everything just ends up repeating itself over and over again. (Hello, I'm so and so and I'm from Utah, and no I am not a Mormon.)
  • Making friends is hard, maintaining them is even harder. (There isn't a common factor of school at this point.)
  • Planning things takes a minimum of a month in advance. (Probably a bit different for everyone, but that's been true for me for all of my various friend groups so far.)
  • How you tell the same story over and over again to different groups of people. (I remember that one time...)
  • How you slowly become a bit like your parents in a way. (Why yes I'm aware that I also have organized piles everywhere, much like my dad.)
  • The same complaints that fall out of my mouth. (Oh Seattle drivers, please follow the fudging road signs and lines on the road!)
  • There is no one size fits all. (Whether it's clothes or skincare advice or anything else in between.)
  • Some old dogs really do not want to learn new tricks. (Not just talking about actual dogs either.)
  • A lot of people actually don't know how to sincerely apologize. (Saying, it's just a joke isn't an apology nor is getting out the ukelele to sing about it.)
  • Water is the ultimate adult drink. (I'm still terrible at staying hydrated though.)
  • How important art and the humanities are and how it's everywhere in life. (The billboards, websites, movies, books, and such doesn't become that from ai btw.)
  • The oh-my-gosh-I-haven't-seen-you-in-forever-we-should-totally-hang-out-soon. And some/most of the time that doesn't actually happen. (A lot of words, not enough action, and I admit some of it is my fault too.)
  • Learning how to be okay with both loss and change. (If that didn't happen, I would have never grown up.)
  • How your childhood affects your whole life. (A thought that I'm very much aware of as I live my day-to-day life.)
  • How your parents (and really everyone) also didn't know shit and how they're figuring it out one day at a time too.
And now the weather:
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7/20/23

Jesus, it's brutal out there

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I'm conflicted between wanting to die because I live in the United States.  (It is doing its best to make sure that I die because I don't have the cis-white-male-class-straight privilege.) While not wanting to live in any other place in the world because they don't seem to understand the weirdness (and particular kind of systematic oppression) that constantly goes on in the United States. Plus I genuinely like the United State's diversity and its fighting spirit to make it an equitable place for everyone in it, even if it means prison and death.
At the same time, I am very much aware that oppression, especially systematic oppression is also everywhere in the world. (I mean look at France.) I was just focused on the United States in particular because I'm the idiot that happens to live in it still. 

No wonder why my generation is the way it is. Yet, I'm still proud of it in a way. 

And now the weather:
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7/14/23

Loss

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Growing up means learning how to be (kind of) okay with loss. Whether it's about losing:
Schools
Jobs
Family 
Friends 
Pets 
Movies 
Shows  
Toys
Wallets
Childhood
Adulthood
Something silly like your favorite pen
Food
Coworkers 
Stories
Memories
Opportunities
Experiences
Etc.
It's okay to grieve and take your time doing it. 
Just remember to come back because there's still a lot to live for.

And now the weather:

~ Stacy N.

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7/7/23

More than one home

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I miss the Utah mountains, the dryness,  the red deserts, the purple sunsets, the closeness of nature, the Hispanic cuisine, the uniqueness of the Great Salt Lake, and its peculiarness amongst America. However, it's still not enough to make me want to go back. It was a good home for a giant chunk of my life. However, there was a stillness, a being stuck in a jello feeling that I had after college. And I needed to get out.
I had to. 
Especially for my mental health and learning how to process everything that was going on in my life.
Honestly, I didn't expect Seattle to be that place. But after some adjusting, I'm glad it was that place that I needed to be in for the moment.

And now the weather:
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