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1/28/17

Four choices

Photo by Anis Abdul
You wake up and find yourself among the stars. There is no ground underneath you just an endless void. And the heat of the stars’ travel across your skin in their far away spot. The only sound you can hear is your fast, shaky breathing and your lack of a heartbeat.

You are dead.

Getting up, not sure how this is even possible as there is no official ground, you glance around and notice four tunnels of light.

The one in front of you screams Earth. Choosing this option means that you are reincarnated into a human baby found in the past, present, or future. But do you feel the need to begin again?

The one to your right sings Heaven. Choosing this option means that you get anything that you want without paying a price. But do you feel that you have been good enough for this route?

The one behind you hums with Emptiness. Choosing this option means that you turn back into the stars and wander around the universe in an endless manner. But do you feel the need to give up?

The one to your right whispers Hell. Choosing this option means that you live in torture for the rest of eternity. But do you feel that you have been bad enough for this route?

You pause not sure which path to take. And you know that you don’t have long to make a choice before it comes. So, taking a deep breath you take a step in whatever direction you chose and another, and another knowing that it is the right one for you.

Do you regret the decision immediately when you step up to the light?

Too late, some unknown force pushes you in, and you find yourself falling towards a fate that you are not prepared for.

Note: This is a story idea that's been on my mind for about four years but I couldn't find a way to say it till now.

And now the weather:
~ Stacy N.
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1/24/17

#Hamilton

By Pete Souza - Behind the Lens: 2015 Year in Photographs By Pete Souza, Chief Official White House Photographer, Public Domain, 
It started when I was procrastinating for my spring 2016 finals when I finally decided to listen to the Hamilton cast album and see what it was all about. That then turned into a downward spiral full of expensive button sets (the shipping was more expensive than the buttons themselves), Ham4Ham videos, Hamilton cast member interviews, any other youtube related Hamilton videos, getting the physical CD version of the musical and listening to it twenty million times in my car, pining over Hamilton clothing and the book that I don’t have the money for, reading the biography that inspired Lin-Manuel Miranda to write the musical, and more. Honestly, it’s my second favorite fandom, right behind The Hunger games. And if I had the money I would have gone to see the musical by now (and paid off my tuition while I’m at it.)
But anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about why I love it so much and it's predominately because of these four reasons.

It has a diverse cast
One thing that you don’t often see in Broadway or popular stories in general. There’s mainly Latinos and blacks, with a scattering of white people, and not really any Asians (which isn’t surprising because Asian parents want their kids in the science/engineering, medical, business, and lawyer fields, nothing creative.) And I remember hearing somewhere (Lin?)  that the reason for the diverse cast is to show that history, especially the history concerning the founding fathers, doesn’t just belong to white people. It also belongs to us, marginalized people. Literally, America was founded on black slavery and the genocide of indigenous Americans*. So, it’s nice to see marginalized people in positions of power instead of the other way around. And it’s nice to see how it relates to now, how freedom is still being fought for every single day by marginalized people. Especially blacks because the United States specializes in anti-black racism that’s very systematic. So, it’s important for this musical to show that yes, black people and people of color are just as equal as whites.
*As well as the Chinese labor on the railroads and in general the exploitation of people of color.

The fashion
Instead of stiff white wigs, white powder, and the hot multi-layered clothing, there’s beanies and some traditional colonial clothing but with a modern twist that would have been scandalous back then (Ahh! People in their underclothing! *Faints*). And it’s better that way because it connects the audience to the history of the founding fathers better. Especially to all the teens that are being bought to see the play for pretty cheap. And again, it’s also showing that that kind of history isn’t just white history but our history, a history belonging to everyone.

Burr is the narrator
Typically, the “villain in your history” doesn’t narrate the protagonist’s life story. However, Burr does, and Leslie Odom Jr. does it in a way that’s very Tony worthy. It’s funny because Burr and Hamilton are frenemies, friends at one point, and enemies at another. And Burr isn’t really a villain until later on when he kills Hamilton (though I’m sure some historians disagree). Plus, all villains see themselves as the protagonist of their own story (no one really sees themselves as a bad guy). Plus, there are times when Burr is humanized. The most famous being when he sings “Dear Theodosia”, you see him as a proud father at that moment. And upon one of my internet stumbles, I found a Hamilton workshop song, the “Dear Theodosia” reprise. And it’s heartbreaking because Burr’s voice cracks when singing because his wife just died. Another time when Burr’s voice cracks is when he sings “I don’t want him to make an orphan of my daughter” in the duel song between him and Hamilton. Even though, if I remember right, Theodosia was already married and was in her twenties when the duel happened. In other words, Burr being a father who really cares about his family humanizes him. Another thing, it’s better that Burr is the narrator because of his cautious side that makes you curious as to what’s going on (as seen in “The Room Where it Happens”). If the narrator was Hamilton he’ll overspill his life story which would be a bit overwhelming.

The music
It’s the main reason why I love the whole musical. Since the tickets are probably my whole college tuition for one semester, the only way I can really experience the musical itself is through the sound recording and a few clips of the musical. And the songs are pretty unique. The musical may not be the first rap musical in history (if I remember right, the first rap musical was released in the 90's but it wasn't as well known), but it may be the first historical rap musical. But the musical is not all rap, it does have a bit of 80’s, R&B, etc. If it was all rap, it would be interesting but a bit boring. And that’s what a story needs, a variety of elements like metaphors, irony, imagery, etc. If it doesn’t have variety, it’s not going to do well. And that’s why Hamilton does so well (along with a lot of celebrity endorsements), it has a variety of songs that appeals to a wide audience like the Obamas, BeyoncĂ©, teenagers in AP U.S. History class, etc.

Note: This was one of the posts that I've written for my reading and watching journal that I had to do for one of my classes last semester. And I already know that Leslie Odom Jr. isn't Aaron Burr anymore.

And now the weather:
~ Stacy N.
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1/20/17

Thanks Obama,

Picture by Occupy Democrats
For your jokes, your loyalty, and hard work. And even though you messed up here and there, you still did the best that you could in making America better, whether it was through the Affordable Care Act aka Obamacare or lowering unemployment or even legalizing same-sex marriage.
We will honestly miss you and good luck with your future endeavors.

~ Stacy N.
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1/17/17

My Asianess and Sexuality

Photo by Pham Khoai
I’ve never felt broken as an asexual. I’ve never felt the need from American society to have sex or that sex was very important in a relationship. Of course, I do see that American society does emphasize that sex is “important” because it’s everywhere in books, television shows, music, movies, etc. But I’ve never felt broken because I’m an Asian-American who grew up in an Asian household.
In Vietnam, it’s discouraged to show public displays of affection or to be intimately close with your partner. Literally, couples won’t even hold hands when they’re out walking in the streets. Mix in the fact that some/most Asian parents say, “don’t date while you’re in school because they’ll only distract you from your studies.” And I took that to heart (failing a few times here or there). So, I never really felt broken because it seems like the Asian (more Vietnamese) culture emphasized no public displays of affection or to even talk about sex or anything of that sort.
Plus, it was common to meet your partner through a matchmaker. So, feeling like you had to have sex to be intimate with your partner was never there because you only had sex to carry on your family line. So, in the end, what I’m trying to say is, because of my race I’ve never felt pressured to have sex in a relationship to remain intimate with my partner because it seems like sex is predominately used to carry on your family line. That’s why I never felt that I was broken unlike what (it seems) many ace* people experience.
And that my friends is an example of intersectional feminism where my race intersected with my sexuality.
It also explains why I didn’t find out I was asexual until late into high school because I’ve never really thought about my sexuality much because I was mainly worrying about school and some other personal problems.

And now the weather:
Every time I saw someone who identified as ace, they appeared to be white - Shae Collins on “7 Sex Myths I Had to Unlearn When I Realized I Was Asexual” via everyday feminism (Finally, someone else who understands my struggle in the ace community.)

*Ace according to urbandictionary.com (the second definition) is "Asexual to any degree. Using "ace" for "asexual" gained popularity on AVEN (www.asexuality.org) and has inspired the use of the spade as a symbol of the asexual community."
~ Stacy N.
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1/8/17

Sweet's Galore! Another blog birthday

Texture by MPepina
Font is Jenna Sue
If you caught the reference to my old blog name (Sweet's Galore), you know you've been here too long but thank you for still staying with me and hopefully you'll still stay. Thinking back, this blog has gone through a lot of phases, the random middle school years, my high school years of book reviews and trying to deal with personal issues, and my current college years that seem to lean more towards social justice and feminist issues, with bits of my writing are sprinkled here and there. My blog has also changed a lot from Blogspot's standard themes to themes that I found on the internet to themes that I now personally make. And of course, there was that name change. I've also updated how I've written my blog posts to the style that you now commonly see. But throughout it all, my little talks has remained the same. It's still a blog written by me about anything but not everything. Whether that anything is about books, my writing, feminist issues, what's going on in my life, or whatever happens to be on my mind. And hopefully, it still stays like that for another six years.

Also, holy crap six years! Thank you to you guys (and my want to give myself a voice through my writing) I would not be here. Honestly, readers, viewers, just some kind of an audience in general is part of why I still continue blogging. Because no matter what I say, I know I always have at least one person listening and that's the most comforting thing in the world.

And now the weather:
The Way You Are by David Choi and Kina Grannis
~ Stacy N.
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1/2/17

Hello 2017

Photo by Tj Holowaychuk
Font is Mathilde
2017, I hope you're a better year than 2016 but I doubt that will happen. Everything needs to dip down because good things can't last forever. However, bad things can't last forever either, so it needs to rise up eventually before going back down and then up and then down and then up. But hopefully, in the bigger picture progress will be made in an uphill direction.

Also, ever year I realize how much the world sucks. And how it seems like that no matter what happens terrible events are going to occur. Another police officer shoots an unarmed black person that ends up on the news; somewhere in the Middle East is another shooting and the news won't say anything about it until kids are involved and badly injured; police are going to use unjust force on protestors (which will most likely happen during inauguration day at least); something terrible will happen around reproductive justice (specifically concerning limiting access to abortion); something terrible will also happen around the LGBTQIA+ group (another bill that limits their rights? another shooting?); something involving terrorism will happen; Trump is going to say and/or do something dumb and offensive; etc. And it's sad and people will do their thing they do best which is just liking a post/picture/tweet (maybe changing their facebook profile picture) without actually doing anything about it.

However, this year I'll do my best and donate to charities and organizations that will actually help those in need and those who've been affected by the terrible tragedy that will happen. It may not be much because I am a broke college student but every penny does add up. I'll also try my best and post about terrible events* to make you guys aware of it and post some links so you can help support them too. Also, I'll try to catch myself saying or thinking problematic things more often and actually learn about why it's bad and do my best to not repeat the mistake again. And I'll try to be more vocal on matters that are important to me because nothing is going to be done if I'm silent on it. Plus, silence does add to the problem. And hopefully, I write more for at least fifteen minutes every day or every other day because it is fun to do when I'm not stuck in the boggy middle.
Well, I've unintentionally made some New Year's resolutions, here's to hoping that I actually do follow up on it.

What are your New Year's resolutions or do you just make promises that you don't care if you keep up on or not? Do you see life with the glass half empty or half filled or both? Also, are you glad that it's finally a new year or are you kind of nervous to see what terrible things will happen or both?

And now the weather:
Neverland by Zendaya

*Only if I feel like I understand it well enough
P.S. Happy New Year and may your year be at least okay.
~ Stacy N.
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