My body

Photo by Sarah Pflug

I admit I get a bit self-conscious about my body. I try not to show it, but it's hard sometimes. Yes, I do love my body and I'm fine with the way it is, but occasionally it takes a lot of convincing for me to believe it.

It's funny, when I was younger I tried my best to gain weight because I didn't like how skinny I was and how underweight I've been. Then something changed, and now I can't help but see how much "skinny fat" I've got and now I want to lose that. Even though I know it's fine and that overall, it's not really going to change anyone's opinions of me, right? But that still doesn't stop me from unconsciously sucking in my stomach on a daily basis or worry about how much weight I've gained, even though I know most of it is probably muscle weight since I've been moving around more, mainly for work.

In the end, loving my body is a continual learning process that will stay with me my whole life. And no matter what, I shouldn't base my self worth on that (even if society does pressure me to do so.) My self worth is more than that. Way more than that.

And now the weather:
Good Thing by Zedd and Kehlani
I already got a good thing with me

~ Stacy N.

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Relationships and social media

Photo by Christina Morillo

On behalf of a friend, I am wondering when it should be appropriate to start introducing your (romantic) relationship to your friends, family, and social media. Yes, I am very much aware that it varies upon relationship to relationship and that it does happen in stages and overall it needs to involve the consent of all sides and ensure that everyone is comfortable with it. However, is there a general consensus of when that should happen? And who has the right to know first?

It's funny how we didn't need to think about this like a century ago (or at most 50 years ago). However, with the introduction of technology (aka computers or more specifically the internet), we as a human species started thinking about how to show off our relationship online trying to garner the opinions of thousands of strangers. When really, in the end, that doesn't matter. All that matters is the opinions of you and your partner and those closest to the both of you, but namely your pet. (Even if it does freak out the both of you.)

And now the weather:
Good Day by Surfaces

~ Stacy N.

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speechless (letters part 11)

Photo by Roman Kraft

Dear person who will definitely know that it's them when they read this,
Isn't it ironic that I'm a writer of some sort? I'm supposed to have all the words and know the best metaphors to describe the overwhelmings of life, but when it comes to you, you've left me completely speechless. And that is honestly the best thing I can ask for because there isn't anything in the world that can be compared to you or our love for each other. Cảm ơn ♥

And now the weather:
Speechless by Dan & Shay cover by John & Krystina
After all this time I'm just as nervous / Every time you walk into the room

~ Stacy N.

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