HOPE

It was unusually quiet, in the dank, smelly hallway. The roof was full of water patches, as big as elephants, waiting to fall in any time. Though I kept moving, so I could just escape, from them, hoping they won’t follow. My dim flashlight, cast eerie, pulsating shadows. Growing as long and skinny as tree trunks. But with faces so scary, beyond anything you can imagine. My only hope is to go forward, to the end of the hallway where there’s light. The light that means hope. Hope for a better future. Hope that everything will turn up okay in the end. And hope for all my friends, to have better futures, just like I might have as well. So on, I go one step at a time. 

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What the heck?

I was walking down the busy downtown street of Salt Lake City. Enjoying the beautiful view of the mountains, while listening to the traffic of rush hour, and smelling the delicious smells of scones, and other delectable foods. Of all the while of keeping my eye out for someone important. I stop in front of the bookstore, to seek him out, knowing he would most likely be here. But what I saw freaked me out.
    Near the sports store, I saw two familiar guys. My twin brother and my crush. They were talking about stuff, while something dawned on me. Of course, my gay brother, the one who like unicorns, and rainbows, and cute puppies, and should have born to the Greek goddess of rainbows, called Iris. Should have a crush, on my crush. Confusing I know, but what freaked me out a bit, was that my crush also had a crush on my brother. And to make things worse for me, was that they were flirting with each other, in front of everybody here. It's true; people keep giving them weird, possibly disgusted looks as they pass, wondering if they're kidding, or if it's for real.
    Well that's what they get for having a world full of heterosexists. I sigh, thinking I was getting somewhere with him. Now I know to only crush on guys, that don't hang out with my brother. It's just another episode, of a guy that's only a friend, and not something a bit more.

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Guilt

I sigh; today's going to be the day where I ask my crush out. I took one tiny step to his table, then another, and another. Just as I was about to take another step though, Baden stepped in front of me, looking as happy as ever. "Hey, Melody," he says causally, and happyish. "Hey Bade," I say causally back, while trying to step around him. "What are you doing?" he said, stepping along with me. "Oh, just something," I said trying to step around him again. "And what is that?" he says copying my step. "Just something really important, now will you please move?" I ask annoyed. "Okay, see ya in class," he says bounding off, like a wounded puppy. It made me feel kind of bad, to know that I've hurt him like that. But it didn't last long, because my crush was getting up to go somewhere. And the good news was that he was by himself, so it saved me from asking him in front friends. And that would be awkward.
I backtrack a couple of steps, and nearly sprint up to him. "Hey," he says not looking back at me. "Hi," I swallow up my fear, so my voice won't shake. "So what are you doing?" he stops, and waits for me. "Nothing just getting a soda," I lie. "Yeah, right," he smirks. "Well what are you doing?" I ask getting a bit irritable. "Just talking to you, duh," he said lightly. "Well what were you going to do before I came?" He became silent, clearly not going to answer. "Hey Mel, would you like to go outside with me please," then he left, meaning there's no choice but to follow. "Okay, but Rain wait," he didn't turn around still heading out into the courtyard.
Once we stopped, we were under the cherry tree, hidden blissfully away from everybody. Rain seemed nervous somehow, but he took a deep breath, and seemed okay again. "Hey Rain, are you okay?" I desperately wanted to ask him to go to the movies with me but my voice won't go that far. "Yeah, it's just that I was wondering about something," he looks at me with his smoke gray eyes. It always reminds me of campfires, and warm nights by the chimney with friends and family. "What are you wondering about?" I kind of wish him to be a bit closer, so I could smell his woodsy smell. "Well, umm do you want to go to the movies with me this weekend," he looks at me, his eyes pleading a bit. "Just you and me?" and I thought, that I was going to ask him out. "Yeah, I mean I understand if you can't," he says quickly, acting kind of sad. "Well sure, I would like to go to the movies with you," I say looking down.
A guilty knot starts forming in my stomach. "Really," he says excitedly. I nod, trying to ignore the guilty knot in my stomach. "Well cool, I'll pick you up at seven, on Friday." "Cool," my stomach starts twisting uncomfortably now. He looks at me like he wants something else to. But before I can ask him about it, the bell rang, almost like a little child screaming for its mommy. "See ya," I say, walking away. But before I even went two steps, he grabbed my hand, making me stop. "Wait," he said, and before I could say anything, he kissed me on my forehead. Then he left, before I fully realized what has happened. The place where he kissed me, tingled joyfully, but the rest of my body is in disgust. I finally got what I wanted, I thought. But why do I feel so guilty having it?

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Oops

"Hey, do you like someone?" asks the guy next to me. He had a mischievous smile on face, like he knew whom I was thinking about. "No," I asked trying hard not to blush. "Are you sure?" "Yeah," I'm very close to squeaking, and I only do that when I'm nervous, or when I lie. "Are you positively, absolutely, definitely sure about that?" I nod my head, not trusting my own voice. "Are you sure, that there is not one girl you're after?" he says still not letting go. "Well…" I swallow; I can't believe that I'm going to tell him. "Hmm," he raises a perfectly arched eyebrow. "Well, there is this one girl, and I've known her ever since I've seen her face. You could say it was love at first sight," I look down; I can't believe that I've told him that. "Well, that's easy just save the world, and that will win her heart," he says confidently, like he knows that it will work out perfectly. "I, I can't," I say blushing now. "Oh why's that?" he asks confused. "B-b-b-because s-s-s-she's," I swallow again, unsure of how to go on. "She's?" he asks, wanting me to go on. "B-b-because, she, she i-is the o-o-o-one that is g-g-g-going to destroy i-it," I stumbled. "She's the one that's going to destroy what?" he asks still confused. "She's the one that's going to destroy the world," I say quickly, getting exasperated with him. Everyone on the train gasps, at my remark, making me blush even more. "Oops," I say. Why did I even say that?

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WRITER

Quiet
Observant
Nice
Intrapersonal
Likes to use big words
Useful
Confusing
Awesome
Cool
Redundant
Fun
Me

 

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zodiac

the scientists has found a 13th zodiac sign called 'Ophiuchus'
here are the dates now
Aquarius: Feb. 16-March 11.
Pisces: March 11-April 18.
Aries: April 18-May 13.
Taurus: May 13-June 21.
Gemini: June 21-July 20.
Cancer: July 20-Aug. 10.
Leo: Aug. 10-Sept. 16.
Virgo: Sept. 16-Oct. 30.
Libra: Oct. 30-Nov. 23.
Scorpio: Nov. 23-29.
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29-Dec. 17.
Sagittarius: Dec. 17-Jan. 20
(sighs) i like it better when the had triskadekaphobia (fear of the number 13) about the zodiac. the virgo sign isn't just me.
if you don't believe it here's a link...
http://blogs.babble.com/family-kitchen/2011/01/13/new-zodiac-signs-2011-did-your-sign-change/

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Never Grow Up

Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in and turn on your favorite nightlight
To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have honey
If you could stay like that

(Chorus:)
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Wont let no one break your heart
No one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
Never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mama's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out
Someday and call your own shots
But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJs getting ready for school

(Chorus:)
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
No one's ever burned
Nothing's ever left you scarred
Even though you want to, just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what is sounded like what your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on
Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple

(Chorus:)
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to, please try to never grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just never grow up

PS very sweet... :P

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Shadows

Our shadows are people from our past, and future.
Full of hope, and dreams, and truth, but they're also full of despair, lies, and fear.
Our shadows are also something that determines who we are,
But we don't know it yet, always thinking it's full of black, that's lifeless of color.
While in truth it's full of color, and life, but we just don't know it yet,
Because our eyes are still maturing.
Oh, shadows are small, and tall.
Annoying in some ways, and useful in others.
Oh, what will we do without shadows?

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random inspiration

what is the most random source of inspiration you had?

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Great rules of writing

Do not put statements in the negative form.
And don't start sentences with a conjunction.
If you reread your work, you will find on rereading that a
great deal of repetition can be avoided by rereading and editing.
Never use a long word when a diminutive one will do.
Unqualified superlatives are the worst of all.
De-accession euphemisms.
If any word is improper at the end of a sentence, a linking verb is.
Avoid trendy locutions that sound flaky.
Last, but not least, avoid clichés like the plague.
~William Safire, "Great Rules of Writing"


 
Ps very ironic isn't it :P

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An excerpt from my book (the one I’m writing right now)

I'm running in the silver tree forest, away, from it. I keep on running, and running not caring where I went, just as long as I get away from it. But every stride, every step I take I run deeper into the forest. To the point of where the trees clump together so tightly that, I can't see ahead of me anymore. I stop, scared, and nervous, deciding whether or not climb it, though that might cause the end of my life. But anything is better just to get away from it. So I take one step forward, then another, and another, till I'm in front of the wall of silver trees. But just as I was about to climb it, a silvery, pale fog starts surrounding everything in its path, to the point where I can't even see my hands in front of me anymore. By now, I decided just climb it anyway, even though I can't see where I'm going. But before I can put on foot forward, a pale almost inhumanly being steps forward, glaring at me. Holding a human heart in its hand, instead of a weapon of some kind, reciting some type of poem, over, and over again.
"A girl you see…" another one comes up, also holding a human heart in its hand. "That's 16 years of tree." "With semiprecious eyes…" the first one says. "She can change things like ice," says the second one. "Unexpectedly she will glow…" "And her courage will grow." "She will be the one…" "To kill the old evil that has shown." Each time they keep on saying, they twist it up more and more like they're mocking it. Making it hurt me somehow. Then the first one did what I would not have suspected… it took a bite of the heart. And the heart screamed, a cold-blooded scream, sounding just like Kisha. The first thing, smiled a sharp pointed smile, having unusually pointy teeth, almost like the sharp points of a chain saw, and then it threw the heart that screamed, at me.

 
(PS. Just think of Voldermort's slimy face from Harry Potter as it.) (PPS. Kisha is one of the characters in my book).

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Why?

    I sit on my bed, trying hard not to think about all the good times I've had, with him. I try so hard, that my head ended up hurting badly. But I couldn't do it for long. Nostalgia hits me cold like the flu. Memory, after memory of us together, makes me long for the past. Makes me wish that nothing would change, and end up like things right now. A teardrop starts dropping onto my shirt, first one, and now two, four, and five. I don't care. All I care about is him. The one guy that would make my heart race, and make the butterflies in my stomach flutter pleasantly. But most of all he's the only that knows the real me.
    I keep on remembering forbidden memories of him. Especially the last memory. Where we didn't say things that was supposed to be said. Where we misinterpreted each other. Where I saw who he really was. However, I still miss him, still wishing he would just deny it all, and just choose me. But none of that, won't make him call; will make me stop waiting for the phone to ring. The tears start increasing, my heart starts throbbing. My brain wishing it could explode from all of the raw nostalgia. But that won't make me stop, waiting. Till the day ends. Till he realizes that, he's supposed to be mine. Till I die waiting for him…

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Welcome

Hi I'm sweets1018 aka Stacy N. Some of you guys might know me. Some of you guys won't. Well since it's a new year, I decided to make a new blog. One that works, but one that won't have games. Which is kind of sad, if you want to play games just go to my website on stacysgalore.yolasite.com. It's pretty fun. Well see ya. I got to get going. I'll post more later. :P

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